Very lonely , it was like I was a mini Rambo, I was plotting my next survival mission in ways, and protecting my siblings and my mom, then I would be protecting my mom from my siblings, then I would be protecting my mother and siblings from my father, then , my mom would , defend my father, OMG, then my mom would say, what are you afraid of, everything is fine here, nothing to be afraid of, LMAO. ok then why are the cops in the house , hauling him away, and why are you bruised, and why are we always having to run in the middle of the night, if this is ok, I wonder what bad is. lol