Wow, that must have been an intense/emotional session for you!

On the one hand I can see how amazing that must have felt. I've read bits and pieces of your story, and also have my own story to draw from experiences, and I know I would have been ecstatic if my T had of done that with me.

I had a past T who was fairly firm on the no-touch thing with certain clients. She said that while touch can be very helpful and healing with some people, that she had to tread carefully with those who had attachment things going on. This is what I worry about with you (and I would me too!). While it probably feels really comforting in the moment, my worry is that the expectations you have will just increase from there (naturally), and that it will become harder and harder for you to have this feeling again. Not only that, but I would imagine it could become even harder for you to internalize this feeling because you will always be searching for more. (When I say that I don't mean YOU necessarily, but people who may have attachment stuff going on).

That all being said, you're the only one who knows what goes on for you and your relationship with your T. I would just caution you to listen to your instincts, and keep very open the lines of communication with your T. And of course, keep us posted

Kind regards,
Jacq