Blunt post warning but seriously if you don't have depression I don't know who does.

My boyfriend doesn't want me to do volunteer work because he says that I break down to easily from having too much activities in my life. Having bipolar really sucks, it makes me feel like I'm more vulnerable than the average person. I really want to volunteer, but I don't want to go manic. I think if I can have a concrete schedule he might change his mind, but my cna job is always inconsistent so that currently is not possible.

i have a team meeting with T and my recovery coach today in an hour. i asked T if i was in trouble but he said no. i just wonder what it's about. i didn't get much of any sleep sunday night and monday night and the voices came back but they are gone now.

Willow: I'm sorry you're feeling pointless. You're not pointless. And your badness won't go through your blood because you're not bad. Bad people don't care about others and wouldn't give blood to begin with. Even feeling like you do right now, you thought maybe helping others would lift your spirits. That's the sure sign of a wonderful person right there. I know how you feel, with the depression, but trust me you are a good person and you'll get through this.