Yes. I'm struggling with it too. No contact between us in last six weeks except for one horrific telephone call. Very weird after having lengthy conversations two or three times a week for years.

Sometimes I feel like sending a card saying "Wow! Despite all your neglect I survived!" but I won't. Because I do love her, and though right now I can't ever see us having a relationship where we don't tear strips off each other, a bit of me hopes for a miracle one day.