Dear friends,
Living in the river of denial has caused lots of tiresome issues for me of late....least of all alienation, frustration, and inability to deal with the underlying rage, that seems to make such a lot of turmoil, and distrust.

I get a double dose of punishment, and have been at a crossroads lately.
It seems that I'm in need, yet push away (?)

My "sources" of support were and are fed up with it (my attitude, and behavior, and so am I).

IRW, social interactions have actually become physically painful body sensations, but dealing with this now is easier.

All I would like today, is a huge hug, a warm smile, and welcoming arms to hold me....., some quiet companionship (which I actually do have from my dogs) well I meant of human contact. LOL

Admitting my truth here is liberating, and the source of support I need at the moment. Feeling very heavy hearted most times isn't an endearing trait I'm fond. Just a venting and airing out my "stuff".

Jade