I was raised Catholic. I try to go to church, but I just can't do it. I know I have a lot of faults and hope that God won't punish when I die. The church I went to had so many things that I had trouble with including people telling me that God is punishing me by causing me to have a MI or that it was caused by not praying enough.

I want to go to church, but I haven't found one I really feel like I fit in. I try to pray when I can and I hope I'm doing it right, if there is even a right way. I just pray for a forgiving God.

I tend to get hyper-religious when manic--I mean completely over the top nuts here. I want to go to church if I can find one where I fit in, but when those thoughts come I worry if I am becoming manic.