I saw my T today and even though the session went ok, I'm kind of distressed right now. We've been working for a while on getting me to find a full time job, move out of the house I was abused in, and generally starting to live my own life.

Last session she asked me to get in touch with a social worker to see what help I could get to move out. I have an appt tomorrow morning, I'm so scared and I can't not go because T is expecting me to text her to say how it went. She also knows the team well because she used to work there and mentioned having direct contact with them about me if needed.

Then at one point during the session I mentioned that even though I've had thyroid problems for years, I haven't had a check-up nor taken my meds in 2 years. As you can guess T was not happy, but when I told her I didn't trust my GP anymore and had now idea how to choose another one. She immediately asked if she gave me a referral to a GP she knows well and is safe , would I go? I told her yes, so she immediately got the address and phone number for me, and wrote a quick letter for the GP.
Btw in the letter I found out I have some dependant personality traits... she had already told me that I am overly attached and have some issues there, but never mentionned it as a personality disorder.

So now I feel like this whole team is setting itself up around me, that actually I should be happy about finally getting all the help I need... but I'm so scared it's horrible. I can't stop thinking about all the negatives things that could happen, or that I'm going behind my family's back. I'm so scared of losing control of the situation and that everything will end up being worse than it is now.

For those in a similar situation, how do you find faith that in the end everything will be alright?