I don't remember the last time I didn't feel exhausted; maybe in my early teens, I'm not sure. It has become part of who I am. I feel like I'm in a constant struggle with myself trying to regulate my emotions, trying to focus my thoughts and refocus my thoughts, trying to block out negativity, trying to control my impulsive actions, trying to be a good mother, trying to be a good gf, trying to keep my jobs, just simply trying to function like a normal human being, only to fail miserably over and over again. One step forward and two steps back is my life. It is a never ending battle in my head; there is never EVER a moment of peace for me, even when I sleep. My mind never stops. I AM SO EXHAUSTED!!