((((((tellybox!))))))

I'm glad things seem to be some better for you and that you're able to talk with your ex now.

As for deciding whether you want to pursue trying it with her again, I don't know what the answer is. On the one hand it could be more painful, but if you think you'd always regret not trying to pursue it again then that's a reason to do it. I did try to get back together with my ex when we first broke up. I probably should have waited a while before trying, but I was miserable when we first broke up. At any rate, we didn't get back together. I guess we're now seriously apart, not even talking at all. I distract myself with lots of other things (including this forum!).

But there's nothing wrong with wanting to get back with her in my opinion. Who knows what the future will hold. If you do a lot of stuff for yourself in the meantime, you might be able to deal with things better if it turned out you were not going to get together again, or even if you decided you didn't even want to try again. And I guess I'm just kind of rambling around here, not that helpful. I figure if you're working on improving yourself (me working on myself), everything's bound to get better some way or another. Just hard to know what the path will end up being.

Sorry about the whole "choosing sides" thing with the friends. I guess that always happens and it's uncomfortable even when they're taking YOUR side. Sounds like your ex is probably just going wild for a bit. It's hard not to get kind of crazy when a serious relationship first ends.

Anyway, sorry for rambling. I don't know if that was helpful or not, but I'm thinking about you and hope things are getting better.

Sidony