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Mar 26, 2014, 12:04 PM
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Member Since: Feb 2014
Location: Dayton, Ohio
Posts: 33
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I would seek some mental/emotional and spiritual help immediately. Cutting and suicidal thoughts are your Number 1 concern right at the moment. Most boys (and they are still boys rather than true men until they are at least 25 or 30 years old) your age are not capable of being sexually faithful to one lady. Taking it personally is taking far too much away from you both in the past and right now in the present.
You are still very young, and need to get help for yourself. Let the other issues with friends and boyfriends alone for a long while as you get yourself healthy in mind, body and spirit. There are professionals out there who can help you accomplish this. Please go immediately. Life is worth living and it's just the depression that is warping your belief system in this area right now. I am a mother. I have no grandchildren and only one daughter. I have prayed and continue to pray many a prayer for her to regain her health and spiritual boundaries. She is older than you. She is 30. There are adults who can know and can love you. They don't want you suffering this way. I wish you wellness and peace. 
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