I've been inpatient several times and it has always been the same....about a week in and then they let me go. Why? Why was I not listened to , especially the last times when I was very clear I was not ready? I don't understand the dismissing I really needed longer term help. Why are doctors so dismissing? Why is there this standard one week program? Why was I let go, assigned to outpatient care that I could not possibly afford to do? I then become the bad guy for not following thru, but honestly, I could not afford it.
Why is it not affordable? Why are we released when we are not ready? I will never understand these things.
After an attempt on my life the first time, I was inpatient. They scare us into thinking it is a BAD thing that we will be held inpatient for months on end. Everyone around me, including myself were scared so bad thinking this would be a bad thing. For me, I wish they did keep me for months. Perhaps it could have rehabilitated me to a better place. Why use fear? Why encourage us to say we are ready to leave? Why the fear??
I hate so much that the system is all about money. We are human. Are we not worth more than currency? I certainly got the message that we are not.
I'm really down with humanity. I don't know how to think or even feel anymore.
What just kills me, is my children deserve a healthy mother. So, not only have I been robbed, but they have been robbed as well. That's the part I can't get over....they really deserve a healthy mom.