Hi UM I'm really sorry that you've felt this bad or felt the urge this badly. I do know that it's far from easy to walk away from this and cutting gives you something that right now nothing else is. But you know you can/have minimized it, you do have it in you to at least move a little away from it for now. So anything at all you can do to downgrade it, anything!!
And I know it must be almost impossible for you to even consider just stopping right now, but if you can at least let us try to support you towards that (however slowly). And I know you're getting help, so maybe throw a bit more responsibility their way to help you a little more.
But for now, please make sure you're looking after the slice/cut and if you need any medical assistance........and just let us in if there's anything we can say to help you feel better, we/I do really want to!! Whatever we can do if you want to talk..............
That was supposed to be an understanding, supportive "please don't"!!
But here for you regardless.......
Alison