Dear Rose,
Just saw this, I checked to see when you were here last. I'm so sorry you are feeling so badly, you ARE in a tough place. Sorry to hear about your foot. You have to take care of yourself though, I know its hard to when we feel so badly about ourselves. I know you are trying to find a way, I hope that this will work out and you find maybe a new medication that might help?
Why does depression have to steal our joys? I'm sorry it feels like there are no answers. I wish I could give you hope. You have been such an awesome friend. How can we help, I wish I knew. It does feel like we want to escape, and physical pain on top of depression, on top of caring for someone else and not being able to get help from someone, to get your own needs met.. oh, Rose , I do feel for you. Please let us all know how you are doing?