I survived my session with my T. It was good! I was so scared after our last session that we would never be the same. He explained to me again why he had been so hard on me last time. He didn't apologize for how he had been and that wasn't what I wanted, but he made sure I understood why he had been that way. I said I understand. (I am now glad I did call him in between sessions, as this let him know how serious it was for me. I have never called him before and don't do it lightly.) I told him I was sorry and he said that wasn't the issue. I told him firmly that it is an issue for me, and he quieted down and let me apologize. He told me he didn't want to minimize what I had to say and that he accepted my apology and thank you. Very warm and sincere.

He said maybe I had never had a relationship like this before, meaning him and me, and I agreed. He said this is what health looks like. It warmed my heart to hear him use "health" to describe us. I am striving toward that, and learning as I go.

He talked a lot more than usual for the rest of the session. He had a lot to say to me.

We have so much work to do yet. I wish I could see him twice a week so we could make faster progress. I can understand why therapy can take years.

I am feeling much better!

sunny