Hi Withered-Rose, do you think maybe you're trying too hard at times e.g. is there anyone who can help with your child/children? or even if you could get together with other mothers at times to compare notes and get morale/support? Is your b/f doing all he can to give you some support- maybe talk to him and even if there are some more little things he can do to help that would be good, right? But alongside that is there anyway you could just make a bit more time just for yourself, take the strain off a bit?
And with the failing perhaps you're putting too high expectations on yourself considering the way you're feeling?? Perhaps some of those failures aren't quite as bad as you're perceiving them to be??
Although are you seeing a doctor/pdoc about how things are for you? Maybe medication or changes in medication could help. And you know, there may even be some undiagnosed health issue adding to all of this, worth checking?
Alison