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Originally Posted by Withered-Rose79
I don't remember the last time I didn't feel exhausted; maybe in my early teens, I'm not sure. It has become part of who I am. I feel like I'm in a constant struggle with myself trying to regulate my emotions, trying to focus my thoughts and refocus my thoughts, trying to block out negativity, trying to control my impulsive actions, trying to be a good mother, trying to be a good gf, trying to keep my jobs, just simply trying to function like a normal human being, only to fail miserably over and over again. One step forward and two steps back is my life. It is a never ending battle in my head; there is never EVER a moment of peace for me, even when I sleep. My mind never stops. I AM SO EXHAUSTED!!
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i think the regulation of the emotions is the hardest part, this morning i was so down, now i feel great. the sun is shining and i was able to help someone today,
when you're down it seems to last forever, when you're up it seems to last not long enough, i'm trying to learn to appreciate these up moments in time because it seems like there's not enough of them, the failing over and over again has become like a way of life for me, i'm just trying to learn from the mistakes i seem to keep making and learn how to be happy
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I have learned that i and i alone am responsible for my happiness, most people these days are as reliable as wet toilet paper!
