My horses are boarded at a little farm, and it's not too expensive... I pay for both of them what I would pay for one at a normal stable. But still more than I can afford paying on my own for now.

And sidestepper you're right, I think it's a good time to make these changes, I'm doing much better than I used to, and with this support system in place I should be able to get through this rough time. Right now all I can think about is what could go wrong, so it's really stressful, but I've been through worse, I can do this too.