I seriously can't understand why they won't give you a referal - I mean really, let the pdoc decide if it's serious or not!

Anyway I don't really know how to help but I can tell you I completely understand the guilt. I have a three year old and when I am agitated I HATE how I act. I did something a month ago that made me go back and get help again even though I really don't want to. I mean even when I'm in the midst of screaming at my husband I am sick to my stomach with guilt but I can't stop. So I understand where you're coming from. Hubby is pushing me to have another kid but if I'm like this now I'm scared to be pregnant and not have the option of taking medication.