You are doing well, we all have insecurities, but give yourself credit you deserve it, really, whether you realize it or not you have grown in therapy.
I freaked a bit today, my t knew it, I see her weekly, after next week april 2, I wont see her till April 17th, she will be out of town, she knew it created anxiety.
What im saying is , its ok to miss that contact, to, be mad at your t, to want to run away, its ok. We are here to support you anyway we can, by the way im in the usa but I hardly sleep, so feel free to pm lol.