I am new here but I needed to tell this to someone I guess. I'm still going up on my Lamictal, so I'm in an awkward place med wise, I'm only at 100mg right now. The last week and a half I've been getting more and more depressed. I was taking my sleep medicine on Tuesday and I took twice what I was supposed to and had to physically stop myself from taking the rest of the bottle (It's Trazodone so I doubt I could have OD'd anyways) but I just keep considering it though I know its bad and I don't truly want to, deep down. I just kind of want to disappear. I told my parents I was depressed (I left out the bad thoughts) but I'm not sure whether I should call my psychiatrist or what I should do. I see my therapist tomorrow but I'm scared to tell her everything because she might want me to go inpatient. Im only 19, I have college I can't do that and get so behind. I feel trapped and scared.Sorry to unload but I really don't know what I should do.