Yes. I am feeling some incredible clarity about the situation. It hurts and I am angry but it is also pretty simple. I plan to say at our next session that I I cannot fix this alone. I am going to tell him that I don't like counselling any more than he does and that I know it's easier to just stifle the difficult feelings, but that I thought our marriage was worth more than that. I am going to be honest and say that I am not going to continue to make an effort alone. And that I am not going to stay in a loveless marriage my whole life. I know it would rip my heart open to put the kids through a divorce, but letting them grow up watching their mom settle for something less than love is not ok either.