You need a routine. I am in a state right now and its because I'm unemployed (due to crushing anxiety and alienation at work and general hopelessness) and floating around with nothing to do is bad. Idle hands, right?

Exercise to tire yourself out and to bring good hormones into your body. Support groups? Are there any in your area? I know its hard, but you have had stability and been okay before?

I am about to go in the hospital to try to get stabilized and I don't know why I'm even really doing it. I just feel like a blank, if that makes sense. Like what is the point I feel nothing at all. I'm scared too and my heart goes out to you.