I've been combing through posts to catch up and this one that I wrote almost a year ago caught my eye. It's interesting to read things in retrospect.

Gosh, I didn't realize what a state I was in then.

Current situation:

*I did quit the job at the insurance company

*I tried working the temporary position several times (scoring standardized tests) but after a few days or a week at most, the anxiety would become paralyzing to the point that I could not make it into work. And this was an assignment I truly enjoyed.

*I moved to a less expensive apartment - although still expensive with no income.


*After realizing that all the extra meds my pdoc was using to try to lift the episode weren't helping he has brought me back to my "standard" Zoloft & Depakote. I have Ativan prescribed 2x a day for anxiety and Restoril for sleep. (My pdoc - and GP for that matter - really advocate Seroquel for sleep but I only take that if no other sleep aid works as even a tiny amount (25 mg) of it zonks me out.

I'm in the last stage of phasing out Lamictal.

*After procrastinating about applying for assistance (I get anxious just thinking of starting that...go figure) I did apply online (LOVE online applications) for Medicaid and Food Stamps and have been contacted by the person there. (Tried calling back and her voice mailbox is currently full).

*Finally figured out the difference between SSI and SSDI. Applied online for SSDI yesterday - took about 5 hours - and looks like there is a lot of paperwork I need to hunt down. Going to apply for SSI today.

Thank you, Candy and Davey for your encouragement last year...and everyone here in the PC family. I finally feel that I'm on the way up and can be of some use here again.

Now back to continued "catch up reading" on you all.