Hi Rhap,
I find music very therapeutic also. It speaks to me as though it was directly meant for me. I think this is a very good thing for you. You are finding ways to articulate your pain and feelings and this to me, translates into the onset of healing.
I know this song and I see how you can relate to it. Let it wrap you up, surround you and don't deny the emotions you feel. Your depth of connection to things is very important imo. You are reaching and seeking and you are courageous. Sometimes you need to go into the darkest crevices of the pain and fear. Without facing it directly it can be hard to get past. This is often so very difficult and you may find yourself face to face with it and you turn around and run back. That's okay too, it is and every time you meet the badness you're trying to overcome, you will gain more strength I think. I have yet to conquer getting past it all myself. Sometimes I feel like trying and then I get overwhelmed and retreat.

I really liked the video, that was like knowing a little piece of you....