I had my meeting with the social worker this morning, she was really nice and I liked her, but that's about the only positive thing that happenned. She basically told me that she understand my need to keep my horses, and didn't even suggest getting rid of them, but she clearly told me that there is no way I could live on my own with the little I earn from my part time job and there is absolutely no help available for now, especially because my horses are considered a luxury even though they are essential to my well-being.

I was pretty p*ssed all day because of this, my brother who abused me for years has his own appartment, his live-in girlfriend and his son are officially a single parent family who pay rent to my brother... and they get quite a lot of welfare money even though they don't need it. But I who have a genuine need and no way out can't get anything because the two horses who keep me alive are a luxury! I know live isn't fair, but come on how sick is this?

Also my T wanted me to text her how it went, I sent a short message saying no help is available until I have a full-time job, and she hasn't answered yet. It's been 7 hours since I sent the text... I feel like she doesn't care and all I want to do is give up... what's the point in trying if no one is willing to help me out of this mess?

There is a small plus though: there is a programm for young adults to be homed at a reduced fee, and to be helped in their daily life for up to 3 years in order to become independant. This would be exactly what I need as I'm doing well enough to not need constant monitoring, but still need some kind of help in order to maintain a healthy lifestyle... But I need to be working full time before I can apply to that programm.