Thanks, Sometimes. I'll look at that when I can think more clearly. I'm trying to get everything like, a list, of things I have big issues with so when I set up to see the pdoc later this year I am prepared, you know? I also am wondering if it has something to do with a psychosis thing, or maybe it's a mixture thing.

Some things that have brought this forward for me to wonder about is because of the similarities I seem to have with Costello's son and conflict. When I have a conflict, my mind has to replay it over and over and over. Conflict causes a big loop for me. If I can't continuously go over the conflict with the person I have an issue with, for example, I can pace around for hours and even days running and re-running every aspect of it through my mind. It sends me into horrendous mixed moods and results in episodes and triggers SI problems in many cases. Even if the other person involved feels things are resolved, the loop can really get it's claws into me. Some loops never really go away, they can be retriggered at later times. Thought loops triggered by my bullying from junior high and high school would retrigger all the way until I was 25 years old.

Other instances of thought loops are if I have a problem I can't resolve quickly. Example, when my phone broke. I had to wait until my upgrade to get a new phone, which was 6 months away. I would go through phases of thought loops. For days on end I would research ways to fix my phone or get a new one, never finding a resolution. Eventually I could talk myself down enough to stop. But, something would trigger it and it would restart.

Also... These are times especially when I talk to Other Me - trying to go over and over again with her how to stop or calm down. I used to live in a house that you could walk in a circle from the living room > kitchen > dinning room > den > living room. I was home alone a lot in my teen years, because no mom and my dad worked nights. It was very common for me to walk that circle for 7-8 hours a day trying to resolve my thought loops with Other Me.

Willow: Yes, I think they are obsessional while they happen. But, they are always caused by triggers. Usually a conflict or problem, but I can also get them over good things like getting too excited about something I'm interested in or looking forward to can also cause them.