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Originally Posted by isntlifewonderful
I guess it is. I need an explaination, something that's 100%, I need to feel like I'm not alone. They're so hard it's ridiculous  Yeah, I mean one second you promise yourself you'll stop it... because you're not dumb or anything, your rational side's telling you you have to quit... but then the feelings take over and you repeat those destructive behaviours once again. I hate it. I'm so sorry, love, you should message me if you want to talk about them. I'm currently having more anxiety and depressive issues than usual and I'm switching between shutting everyone out and being needy and craving affection ALL the time hahah.
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i believe the explanation will probably help you a lot.3 days ago i was at my wits end, i felt like i was falling off a cliff and my life was so outta control knew i needed to do something, my rational side had almost completely shut down, which was really scary. the loneliness at times is unbearable, and my neediness has destroyed many of my relationships, i think that by my ex girlfriends not being able to give me the love and attention i crave because i crave so much, i get upset go into devaluation mode and end the relationship and go looking elsewhere only to ruin it again!its so hard not to repeat the destructive behaviours because that's what we are used to doing 7 worse when you're telling yourself to stop but you can't
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