When do you know that you are on an even keel?

Lately I have been described as manic and / psychotic/paranoid. I wasn't taken my tablets so I went a little wonky. But since then though I am taking them I still feel odd. I will confess I feel really um... sexual (not like me at all) my H is not complaining.

However; all these ideas that are sparking, growing. I am so irritated by well just about everyone,accompanied by some pretty violent imagery. When I breathe in it feels like all my inner cells are expanding my mind feels connected to another dimension. Really, I guess I should not worry if I am not doing any harm.

Well.. I drive super fast without my seatbelt. I think perhaps I am in a mixed state but I don't want to take myself too seriously. J'eeze I'm so bored by everything so I'm fuelling myself with alcohol and pot. Yes that's is not the sensible persons answer but it feels ok right because I'm not telling anyone about seeing things that are not there. My speech is not so pressured that people look twice and i can keep my obsessions under wraps.

So would you say that this is normal thinking? I am so confused about it, I don't know what is considered ok and normal. Maybe this is very normal. I love feeling "excited" Am a little worried that the excitement may crate some non-excitement by my other half.
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