Hello Mouse.
I hope you are doing well at this time. I feel that even though you feel like you are not powerful at this time that you are making very good progress in the way you rationalize within your environment, and seeing things as they are at this time. I think that just the realization that you are having is a strength in itself that is very important to gain in life to help you be more productive in the future, and that is empowerment. I hope the best for you int he future and the progress you are making in therapy and in life. Take care Soidhonia