So I write because whenever I start something new, that I like, I can do it for a while, but then next time I just can't do it. Whenever I want to do something I like (art for e.g.), there's fear and anxiety, and I just can't. So all the things left, are necessities, addictive behaviors, and things I use to escape (for e.g. taking a walk outside in the smoke-filled air).

I feel like my brain is totally working against myself. I was going to post details, but as soon as I began writing I forgot everything .