Is it ok to be ok? Sometimes it doesn't feel like it. So even if we are ok sometimes for a little while, we find a reason not to be ok so for some reason.

(I learned recently that I'm afraid that people won't have a reason to care about me if I'm ok, and I need people to care about me, so I have to make sure I'm not ok. But most people are not like my mother, so I have to keep reminding myself that for most people it doesn't always have to be about one person not being ok and the other person trying (and failing) to help the other to be ok, only to abandon them if they ever make use of the help).