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Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23
I don't know if this is kind of what you call a thought loop, but I go through times, usually triggered like yours, where I just get stuck on a topic and go over and over it for hours trying to resolve the problem. It's usually anger or anxiety that triggers it for me. I'll spend hours going over what they said and what I said and what I should've said and sort of mentally role-playing different scenarios that could've happened. Or I'll spend hours fretting about something that might happen; what they might say, what's the best thing for me to say back, how I should behave etc etc etc.
I don't think I've ever figured out how to stop it though. Usually it happens in bed when I'm trying to go to sleep, and I'll just go on and on and on for hours until I eventually pass out with tiredness. I did this just last night in anticipation for my pdoc appt today! I've actually done this for as long as I can remember.
*Willow*
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yes, that's exactly two things I go through as well. I dont' have bedtime ones any more, which is huge. But I used to. And, it's like being stuck on the same track of a record or movie. The same thing over and over until you just can't take it. Sometimes I'm really aware of it and sometimes I'm not. I've become far more aware of it now than when I was a kid. I had no idea this was something troubling at all and felt it was just normal. As I've gained more insight into other issues this one has become clear. I can lose a whole day and not even realize it.
Example: last Friday I spent 4 hours making a book about anxiety for my son with worksheets of simplified ABC therapy type of stuff. I was caught in a loop thinking he's having psychosomatism like me, and anxiety, adn what if he has bipolar? I just wanted to help him so bad.
I lost my entire work morning. I had no idea I'd spent the whole morning on it, it felt like only about 30 minutes tops. Then, I decided not to give it to him in the end due to anxiety about giving it to him after all that work....