T,

Well, you keep insisting that you're okay with seeing me free of charge for a few months. And you say you won't let anything get in the way of our appointments. Do you even know what you are getting yourself into? I guess if you haven't figured it out by now, you are just too clueless or your rose-colored glasses are too dark. I am terrible and awful and not worth your time, and I am confused about why you can't see that. Instead of seizing the opportunity to take a break from having to tolerate me for a few months, you are choosing to see me free of charge. That's really confusing and scary to me. I feel like I will owe you and will have to pay you back somehow in the future. I know you won't say that, but I don't want you to get tired of me and resent me. I can't live up to the expectations I know you want me to. I will be a disappointment. I am sorry, for taking up your time and for being annoying. I don't deserve you.