Sunshine, you said you don't have any other support besides your T; you probably should work on developing some? Riding a unicycle over a road strewn with glass and "hoping" you don't get a flat tire is not a great plan :-)

Do you have any friends, relatives you like, interests, job(s), hobbies, activities? Does your mental health plan have anything for group therapy? Maybe you could supplement your individual with (usually) less expensive group therapy and alternate/save some up for your individual sessions? Who do you "practice" what you learn in therapy on (besides us :-)?