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Old Mar 27, 2014, 11:09 PM
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I'm feeling kind of lonely and insecure. I'm not really depressed, more just feeling bad about myself and comparing myself to other people. 2 of my friends recently told me they are pregnant (both 10 weeks), and one of my other friends just got back from eloping in Thailand. I am really happy for my friends, I think it's great. But it also makes me feel like a failure because I'm divorced and have no kids. It seems like everyone else I know is all coupled up, and dating is so much effort and totally depressing. So I'm sitting at home, alone, wasting my life away flicking around the forum and watching netflix. I feel so stuck, but I don't know how to change it. Also, I feel a bit ineffectual at work this week, and work is usually the one area of my life that goes well. If I can't even do well at work, then I really don't have anything. I am grateful to be generally doing OK, and I am very aware that things could be a lot worse, but that doesn't mean things are OK the way they are. I don't know how long I can manage to just exist, but not really feel like I am living.
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