Thank you. I am not one to fail to see all the faults I have, and there are plenty. But I truly have been real good to some people who have been awful in return, and it does hurt so much at this time in my life.

I do have enough faith in my own resourcefulness to believe that I will find a way to get through whatever I need to get through. I do have that much security in believing that I can find a way. It seems I always get thrown back on my own resources. I'm proud of myself that I've always managed to deal with things on my own. It just hurts to find myself starting to feel frail, which I never really was in my life before. I'm frail and there is no one to pick me up. Even my s/o never has really been there for me when trouble has come into my life.

I did always tell myself that as long as I had my health, I would keep coping no matter how depressed I got. I did always tell myself that I could let go of life, if I got to where, physically, it was too much for me, and I was alone. I suppose I'm not that bad off yet. My fear is more for the future.