Hi everyone
Thanks to all of you for your time. So I have erotic & positive transference ...I think or something similar. But I don't have a therapist or psychiatrist... I have it bad for my family doctor . I only see him a few times a yr for med refills. And I only see him for 5-10mins idk how I still have feelings for him, or how it happened. But I am madly in love with him . Think he knows that I think he's hott.. one time at my aptmnt, idk I must have been giving him a look or st, bc he looked at me like he was about to start laughing. That was last summer, so I think he's known I had a crush on him, but idk for sure. I'm not good sometimes at communicating with people, and I've always been kind of shy, so that doesn't help. The thing is I don't have a lot of time, he's always in a rush, so I have to be kind of quick about it. I have no idea what to say to him:-(. I haven't tried to bring it up before because I'm scared he'll drop me. I have lots of feelings, but I don't really think I want to talk about my sexual fantasies with him, lol, but I saw some of u guys said you talked with your T about them. I've been in love with him for a little over a year now. t's just getting worse, I think abt him, and still have this horrible feeling of wanting to hang out with him. I'm just breaking my own heart now. Like I cry at night because I want to be with him so bad, but I know there's nothing I can do, he will never want me or let me hangout with him. I can't talk to him or have communication with him because it's against the rules and 'unethical' lol as everyone knows. I'm sure you guys have felt something similar, it really can make you feel heart broken. To those of you who have had 'the first conversation' with your t, I would truly appreciate any advice you have on how to bring it up or what to say...thanks so much