I'm really sorry that you're going through this. Whoever had the idea about taping his threats was right. Don't get too nervous about them getting your medical records... At least that shows that you're actively working on your issues. Yes, they're going to try to use it against you, but if it doesn't affect your children's safety, it shouldn't count against you. I know it's very intimidating that he has a lawyer and you don't. Even if you don't plan to leave your home, still contact a domestic violence shelter, because they often have people who will help you navigate the legal system. Make sure that when you go to court you have someone there to support you. And please keep us posted. My heart aches for you