So I put her off till this afternoon thinking maybe with my insurance we can find some other doctor that will see me sooner and avoid inpatient?? I think I'm just avoiding the going though. I'm so indecisive and don't look forward to what my memory of inpatient is. I just want to feel better. I'm so tired of dealing with this **** over and over again. I feel alone, but I'm glad I have all of you to help me not feel quite so much that way.