Yep. There are others. I think that hate you're feeling is a kind of resentment for the unrealistic expectations you put on yourself. You think it's coming from others, but unless someone actually SAID you were a disappointment, that's probably just your internal frustration talking. I'm I the same boat, and not too far along in therapy, so I don't know how to help with the emptiness. All I can say is you're not the only one...

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