I feel like u do except I've never taken anti depressants. I'm not scared to I just have a hard time remembering to take meds. I'm awful when it comes to antibiotics but that's just another reason for me not to get any. I would probably have to carry the whole bottle with me just so I remember.

I'm constantly in my own mind. The way I try to project my mind into the real world is mixed. I don't always know what I'm talking about but I'm constantly waiting for all out war on US soil or an epidemic. It won't be such a bad thing if I killed myself then, ppl could just think war killed me or I got infected.

I've never had rose colored glasses on. I've always seen the world exactly as it is. Sheer torture to the underprivileged and for ppl like us who society sees as being afflicted. My question to society is: if everyone were to speak honestly how many have perfect mental health?

Even those who say they are in perfect mental health are lying. I believe there is a mental disorder when u believe u are perfect and nothing's wrong.

Sorry don't know where this is going but maybe someone will follow