The fact is that I know for sure she still has feelings for me too, and this makes my decision so hard. Sometimes she is really affectionate to me while sometimes she is not. More often she isn't. As for trust, it can be regained. I am thinking that we have 8 years together and we both did sacrifices for this relationship. I haven't made up my mind just yet. I am thinking I should confront hey again and give an ultimatum. A last chance for honesty and truth. I pretty much hate the fact that I spy on her. But I need to in order to know. How else can I rebuild my trust if I have no reason? I think she is somehow trapped between 2 relationships... Meh, emotions are hard.