MJ--

I have such rage built up right now that I can hardly believe it, and I certainly don't know what to do with it. I utterly despise you.

I despise the parameters you've put in place, too, but I understand the need for them. What I don't understand is how you ever decided to handle their implementation in the way you have. Five years and it feels like you don't know a single thing about me. Or maybe what you know just doesn't matter to you?

Oh, and trying to have a conversation with you is like trying to discuss religion with a fanatic. If you believe all the tenets of the Bible literally with no room for anything else, no one else can ever make a point outside those teachings that will register as valid to you. Your training is your religion, which makes me think you're just scared or insecure, or maybe not as smart as you think.*

Oh, and sometimes a cigar really is just a cigar. Will you ever learn that?

I've acceded to your demands, but in doing so I doubt I'll ever have the trust in or respect for you that's needed to carry on fully with this work. The only blessing is that it'll be easier, now, to leave if I need to. You matter far less to me today than you did a few weeks ago.

--T

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*Not to disparage faith or religious folks...it's just a much more fluid concept to me than it is to some. Really I just mean it as an example of a closed system.