No your not the only one... It's one of those feelings you can't describe or quite put your finger on... It's an intense feeling if distress mixed with numbness to everything...

It's different for everyone I guess but I think a symptom of BPD is the dreaded 'emptiness,' and it's the worst symptom I think because there's no cure or relief you just have to wait for it to go..

Hope you feel better knowing it's not just you...

And I'm sure it will be over soon

That's great that you were even able to name it. I did not realize that is what I was feeling for 40 years actually was a symptom until I was diagnoses and started reading about BPD.

Yep. There are others. I think that hate you're feeling is a kind of resentment for the unrealistic expectations you put on yourself. You think it's coming from others, but unless someone actually SAID you were a disappointment, that's probably just your internal frustration talking. I'm I the same boat, and not too far along in therapy, so I don't know how to help with the emptiness. All I can say is you're not the only one...

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i hate that feeling, i know just what you're talking about.the best thing for it is a hug, though. a really good hug, one of those ones where you just want to hold on with everything you got and never let go. it sucks wanting the attention and there's nothing you can do about it,just sitting there like f*** it i don't really care( but really we do) i hate that feeling, you want to cry, but you've cried so much you don't want to put up the effort. hopefully it will pass soon

Hmm you are definitely not alone! This is a very common feeling of people with bpd. I find it's my least favorite state of all