I wonder if you are the same as I used to be,in that,
I used to NOT WANT TO HEAR CRITICISM OR
PUT DOWNS,so I would physically go or turn around away from person so as not to hear. Problem
was, only when I WAS AWAY and on my own,I
would realize I HAD HEARD THEM!
My diagnoses of that now,is,if I didn't hear them
(at the time) then I would not have to CONFRONT
THEM, which I was very afraid to do.
If you think this is why you do this,I strongly suggest you get some books on ASSERTIVENESS
and SELF-ESTEEM. When I look back,I can see
I was in a living hell.
Courage To You,
BLUEDOVE