i know what you mean, I have felt this ways many times but i also know that it those feeling and thoughts once had did leave after awhile. not knowing what your life is like, i cant say that i understand in that way but i have noticed with myself that after some time later what i wrote in my journal last week is different this week. so my outlook has changed i just didn't notice till i started writing things down and checking back with them later.

I may not know whats it is that is making life so hard for you right now but i do know that it will pass no matter what the problem, it will pass and there will be a new day, a better one.

if you ever want to talk, you can private msg me if you want to

and just know that you are not alone