I've been where you are and was there for about a year. I spent three years in jobs I hated and stated drinking myself to death. I felt the wife and kids just kept taking and taking from me. After getting laid off i feel into a deep depression and all I wanted to do is sleep the rest of my life away.

After three months of that I started counseling and got another job. I was still way out of it but have slowly climbed back into a shell of my former self. Now I just let the days pass another day above ground is my motto. Not another great day but just a day. Part of me just feels dead inside. I feel physically and mentally tired and just long for it to just be all over with.

Stuck in a dead end job and barely speaking with my wife for three plus years now.

Found this web site and hoping to find others like me who have found a reason to keep going.