Hi ToeJam, you are not wasting his time at all!! That's one of the reasons he is there!! And you/your feelings are important!! And if that were to involve going back to him twice a week, that's what you'd need to do!!
I can understand how you may have felt disheartened, a bit hopeless. lost (??) though. But if as you say he's a nice guy maybe something just got a bit lost in communication somewhere along the way.
Perhaps he felt that you'd got a real control on the suicide ideation, you were moving away from it.........with the methods you're using?? And missing the important issue that they are still there, and maybe how real it is?? Perhaps he didn't realise how down the downs were or how much it was effecting you that they were still there??
I'd say make another appointment for before three weeks and make sure you're really graphic with how things are for you, even write them down before hand to give you something to go off in case he leads the conversation elsewhere (even unknowingly).
And question him if you're not entirely sure of why he's going the direction he's going. It's you who's at the center of the appointments remember so it's about you working together to get things right for you.....so he shouldn't mind you wanting to know about the what/when's and why's at all. And then he might be able to explain things a bit clearer e.g. he might not want you taking more medication than you might need due to side effects........he might want to be testing which medication might be right for you with the lower doses, as there will be an upper prescribing dosage he might not want to up it that quickly as it won't give him as much scope to up it even more if he feels you really need it.........
And you know with that much more input from you he might think again and change what he's doing/planning.
It is good that he's seeing you need to be seen sooner than usual- in three weeks- he obviously sees that there is some room for concern. So it probably isn't going to shock him if you ask to see him even sooner than that.
So remember, it's you first, right!! How you're feeling matters!!
Alison