Hello again

Well just when I think I got a handle on things life kicks me again while I'm struggling and down. It's not enough to deal with depression, a dead end job, negative family environment, debt and mounting car issues that can jeopardize said dead end job. I'm starting to think god or life itself doesn't like me. I try to live my life with some type of integrity and dignity and honor. I'm not perfect by any means I make mistakes but who did I screw over to deserve this.

I got a newer car not brand new I could get only what I could afford and I fix one issue just to hear an even bigger one has occurred. People say to buy brand new, mainly this comes from married folks or people with better jobs than me. I can't afford of right now. And to hear both family and friends say I'm stupid or just bad luck doesn't make me sad more than it just pisses me off. I'm used to ridicule sadly enough I've heard it all my life and frankly I'm tired, I try to do right and my right is always wrong. I'm sorry if this bores anyone I'm just at my wits end