Thought I'd post an update...

Left the house today, not to go to school, but to see a doc. I called my therapist 'cause things are still very bad and she said to go. Talking to him was very hard. My body was trembling and I couldn't understand his questions - it was like a mini attack the whole time. He was very calm and thorough and took a long time. In retropect I'm glad I went, but while I was in there every second was torture. He gave me a prescription for Ativan and suggested I see a psychiatrist. So, I will see my therapist tomorrow, the same doctor again and maybe a psychiatrist. I'm trying to look past all of these things as labeling me - that I have truly lost it - and keep them in perspective... they're here to help and I need help.

The Ativan seems to be helping a bit. I am still anxious, but it's a sleepy anxious, not on the verge of an attack anymore. That's good - a bit of breathing room. Now, I'm going to try to work on some reading and writing that I've been neglecting before I fall too far behind.

Thanks all! I keep reading everyone's posts. Keep up the great work!